I guess since it is Tuesday, and I have two things I am thinking about, I could call this a Two For Tuesday, but I’ll be honest…connecting the two things will be quite a stretch. So instead I will just ramble on about them (’cause that’s what I do best).
I admit it: I love this movie. I just adore Sandra.
First…it is a kind of bittersweet day for me. Today is the day I give my two weeks notice at work. (Really, three week…but one of those weeks I am on vacation, so it can’t really count, can it?) I am excited to be able to stay home and write and thrilled that it is possible, but I really do love my job. I was lucky to have found it in the first place. My coworkers are great, the work is fun (most of the time), and I enjoy talking to our clients and the film companies. Pretty much it is the perfect job for me.
I know a lot of my friends (and probably my mom–Hi, Mom!) will think I am crazy for giving this job up. And you all are right–I am a little bit crazy for letting it go. It is a GREAT job. The work is interesting–I get to learn fun stuff about movies and watch trailers and stuff before anyone else! The pay is good, and the perks are wonderful. Really, if things were different, I could see myself working my way up and making a career as a film buyer.
But, things are not different. As much as I love this job, there is something missing, because what I really want to be doing is writing. Yes, I know. whine, whine, whine. People write and sell books all the time while still having a day job. I know that. But here’s the thing–I also like to spend as much time with Bubba as humanly possible after work. Which takes a big chunk of writing time away. Maybe it is because we have only been married a couple years, but we are one of those couples who just spends almost all of our time together. I feel bad going home from work and then hopping right on the computer for the night.
We are in a place now where I can really take the time to pursue my dream and put a full-time effort into my writing, so why wouldn’t I, regardless of how great my job is? So, even though I will be sad to leave it behind, I really think it is the best thing to do. Who knows, maybe I will regret this in the future. I doubt it though.
Secondly…this is kinda a rant, so if you want to skip it…go right ahead! 
The internet is a big place. It is easy to get lost browsing around. But the blogosphere–especially the author/aspiring author blogosphere–is pretty small and tight-knit. So if you do something like, say, close your Twitter account and delete your blog and tell a friend you did it because you “just wanted to get away from a few things”, but really you just transferred your blog to a different domain and got a new Twitter account, you probably should know that the lie is not going to hold up.
Just sayin’.
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to you! The hubby will be happy to see you, and the happiest people are the ones who grab the world by the throat and shove what they love right down in its gullet. It’ll be a hell of a fight, and I’m glad you’re pulling off the gloves. Bubba will make a great cut man too! You can’t lose!
Thanks, buddy! I think when things get tough, I am going to have to come back and read this comment again for some motivation.
Rachel, I quit my job almost 3 years ago to write and I do not regret it. I feel the same way as you do about spending time with my husband – I love to write, but not at the expense of time away from him or my family. I don’t think you will regret your decision!
Yay! That is good to hear. I am glad the decision has worked out so well for you. It makes me even more excited hearing from someone who has already taken the plunge!